Hey, I apologize for sounding like I'm criticizing you or saying you aren't working hard enough. That's not my point at all. It's just that your H is really squirming and resisting. It might be illuminating to put yourself in a position to really squirm and resist, too... you've already put up with a lot more from him than most people would. Not faulting you... just suggesting you kick it to a new level... accelerate the work on you. Why? Because you "need" it? No, but because you're the only one you CAN work on.