"The beatings will continue until morale improves"

[faithisbelieving]

To Tired...yes...I told my W about my 30th reunion. She doesn't seem to care..at least that is what she is trying to show. However, I KNOW that she is still rifling thru my cell phone. I intend to have a good time that night.

To Tyler..hey man...welcome back from the hospital. How was the anesthesia? lol. You made it. WTG. I hear you. I am truly getting to ending this. I'm tired....very tired of this...even when I pull away to give myself a rest. I really can't say anything without it being turned around against me now. I keep to myself. I don't engage my W in any conversation except what is necessary for the kids or house. I focus totally on the kids.....to the point where my W interprets this as 'excluding her'. Nah....just trying to move on with my life. I'll check in on you. Remember Tyler....this BB was here to HELP YOU GET THE TOOLS TO TRY AND SAVE YOUR M. It is NOT here to keep you shackled, bullied and to continue a dead M or where one spouse is not willing to work with it. Two people have to have the same goal to save a M.

To Em: We'll be OK. Smart a bit? OH YEAH....but we'll be OK. I am beginning to see that no matter what happens, my children love me. My son wants to snuggle with me..wants to shoot hoops with me. My D4 wants to go down the water slide with me and plants HUGE kisses on me. Unless I falter (which I won't), no one can strip me of that...not even my W. I had a good month last month. We all know that, as men, we put importance on this. I feel much better about myself..not from a dollars and cents point of view, but, by being able to change...to move forward...and grow. yeah...still...sucks overall..but we must go on.

Strangeness again. As you recall, few Sundays ago, my W was wearing her Victoria Secret panties hiked out of her hiphugger jeans in front of 3 toddlers, looking as if she was going to go out. She never did and actually fell asleep that way. Yesterday, my W told me she was going out with the girls from her salon...and...checked to make sure that I was going to get home early to watch the kids ( I teased myself and said I was running home to babysit so my W could get la_d).

She never went out.

I said NOTHING....either before or after. I shot hoops with S6. I inflated the slide in the back and at dusk, slid down with D4 until we were shaking cold. Then...S6 asked me to go upstairs to my bed to 'cuddle'. D4 soon followed, leaving my W downstairs watching VH1, etc. I fell asleep with both of them

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