Like we never loved before 4

[bright 2 morro]

I have been doing a lot of thinking and reading, that is why I have not been on. I have had to come out of some pretty bad anxiety issues. I think I am getting better for now, but not sure.

We had a joint C session yesterday. He swore to me that he was not with the other women and that he can not be with her. I finally got to talk to him about how I felt in the office and I think he really listened. He also got to tell me how he felt and I listened to him.

He told me that he cared about me and even loved me but he needs to be happy. How can you love someone and care about someone and not want them in your life? That is something I do not get.

He took me out to dinner last night after our session. He mentioned that he may have to move out again. Wow, what a surprise. This search for happiness is getting really old. He was not happy with me, thought he needed to be with someone else, not happy with her, thought it was because he needed to be with the kids, not happy being with the kids. When does this search ever end?

I am begining to hate him.

Mimi