as for the weight lose it is the thyroid, haven't had trouble in a year or so but the labs came back and were not good. so back on the meds.
well we got to the point of filing out the papers tonight together. she said she doesn't want to, but has to. then she couldn't complete it, said she wanted me to be happy while we did it, ef that. then she wants me to have one ef'n wednesday and every other weekend with s. i never lost my cool, but i was not chipper chip monk.
then she wanted one month no contact, only drop off and pick up. i agreed. then she wants to file to see how it feels, see if she is right.
i really can't do this much longer, i'm thinking of giving her what she wants. i'm young, just starting out and have a good earning potential, women already lined up for dates. i'm really considering throwing in the towel and just taken my lumps and moving on.
begged tonight, asked why she was doing this, screwed up big time. i just can't sit there when she tells me all in the same speech she wants me, the marriage and to be happy, but can't do it, feels nothing for me, blah blah blah blah.
this is a huge joke. i think i need to check out for a while, focus on this job prospect, toy with the idea of selling the house and moving on.
she can go find herself, go out and party, find someone else, but i'm real sick of all of it.
