Major backslide. I had committed to giving space and time. Told her that last night. I had committed to not snooping anymore.
So this evening was nice. Had a nice dinner. Watched some TV with my guacamole and some gin & tonics. That was probably the problem. Getting a little bit of a buzz - both of us. I'm not sure where it went wrong, but we started talking about the relationship. I didn't want to bring it up directly. Holy crap. Earlier in the evening, my D was playing with the W phone and I saw a text message from the OG. The whole conversation is completely screwed up. Not sure where it went wrong, but I eventually asked her about the other guy. She said he really is just a friend, and I need to believe her, although she did say that he just filed for divorce. It all comes back to her feelings about me. That she doesn't feel that way and doesn't think that it can change. She's down on the couch now. Little or no hope left in my mind at this time. This sucks.
