I'm sorry you're feeling down. How did he respond (or did he) to you letting him sleep in the bed and to your going to the guest room? No marriage shouldn't be like this, but there's the way it ought to be and then the way it really is. Question we have to ask ourselves is what's it worth to us. I know what you mean about having enough to make it work. I've been having a rough few days and I'm questioning everything. My D15 has told me that I need to do what I think is best and that she (and D12) think I'm doing the best I can. That's alot to live up to, you know? I don't know where or if I can find the strength for this, but I know I'm not done.