Celestial, You're more generous than I am. I must confess to being secretly glad when he gets a kick, esp. a financial kick, because I did so much in way of practical support. Then I think, wow, maybe I'm more of a control freak than I thought.
I'm starting to feel as if I can breathe in the house again. I just felt like there was so much STUFF. I am not materialistic, and though H claims he isn't, he is REALLY going to find out now.
One thing I am trying to do is keep the place fairly clean. H used to be a neatnik (I'd be curious to know if he is now as when he is here he is quite the slob).
I am not being a neatnik--I am just being myself. Getting rid of stuff and having some plain walls without pictures has a clear spare feeling for me. I just want what I have to be meaningful and interesting and I want it to reflect ME.
ME
M: 16 years Bomb 4/07 OW 20s long gone Divorced 11/09 I remarried New Guy Cooperative r w/X regarding D
Getting rid of stuff and having some plain walls without pictures has a clear spare feeling for me.
Hi breton. You should see my walls. White. One wall has a white board. Another wall has a couple small mass-produced master reproduction (got them at the Impressionist Museum in Paris...for free...statute of limitation is probably up) and a speaker. Another has a mural, a CD/DVD cabinet which is held to the wall with screws, and a shelf to hold a center speaker and my Don Quixote and Sancho Panza wood carvings. Another has the other speaker. And that is that.
Getting rid of stuff and having some plain walls without pictures has a clear spare feeling for me.
Hi breton. You should see my walls. White. One wall has a white board. Another wall has a couple small mass-produced master reproduction (got them at the Impressionist Museum in Paris...for free...statute of limitation is probably up) and a speaker. Another has a mural, a CD/DVD cabinet which is held to the wall with screws, and a shelf to hold a center speaker and my Don Quixote and Sancho Panza wood carvings. Another has the other speaker. And that is that.
I did have fun. I added H as Donkey (thanks for tip MrsH I believe) in my cell phone. He called 3x one night. I picked up only the third time. Didn't call much after that.
D1 didn't like the waves and cried when I tried to put her feet in the water, but she does like the sand, and she tried to chase the gulls. She added several new words (boat, beach).
Was feeling sad sometimes because of memories from that area with H. So I decided to make some new memories and spent liberally on ME, since this was my vacation and now I don't have to support H--it can be about ME. I bought an original piece of artwork by a Russian artist. It is my present to ME. I figured that if H had been along, I would've had more expenses because of him so the money was the difference in what I would've paid w/him along.
I also remembered H complaining about certain things up there, even years ago.
At home I believe it was hot as hell so I told H that it was lovely and cool, with wispy clouds, and I was sitting by a lighthouse with my feet in the water.
M: 16 years Bomb 4/07 OW 20s long gone Divorced 11/09 I remarried New Guy Cooperative r w/X regarding D
H came by. I was rather skimpily dressed and freshly tan and with a fresh pedicure and he was staring at me.
Ha ha ha ha ha.
I was playing music on my new stereo and had my new art print out.
H informed me that his contract starts next week so he has to go back to work. Oh dear, reality intrudes on the OW fantasy!!
I said I'd put D1 in day care a third day per week. H wanted to know if that was fair that he has to watch D1 while working FT and it's just obvious that he has not yet gotten onto the Clue Bus, which may have left without him some time ago.
Oh well, I got him to put salt in the water softener. Lil ol Breton cannot lift the 40 pound bag, you see.
I must admit that I am enjoying the attention from other men, too.
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M: 16 years Bomb 4/07 OW 20s long gone Divorced 11/09 I remarried New Guy Cooperative r w/X regarding D
I said I'd put D1 in day care a third day per week. H wanted to know if that was fair that he has to watch D1 while working FT and it's just obvious that he has not yet gotten onto the Clue Bus, which may have left without him some time ago.
The bus not only left without him, he didn't even get a whiff of the fumes. This is such a "Hello" moment.
I'm really glad you had a good time at the beach. I'm going on vacation next week and I'm looking forward to lounging and hiking and all that with our D's.
I love that you were looking so good when he came by.
Oh yes, I do look good, if I do say so myself (coy girly blush).
I have had quite a bit of masculine attention lately. Some comments from a former boss have me wondering if he is interested. i'm not interested in him but I must admit to being somewhat attracted. And I also must admit the attention is flattering and tends to boost my mood.
Just when H seemed a bit nicer, today he asked me in a nasty way if I was using the health insurance.
I think H has gone back to a T (I saw a bill in the mail). It would be good for him if he did so I hope that's the case. But he's still off in MLC world.
H still gets a fair amount of mail at our house but continues to take books.
D1 had a gleam in her eye when I got home--I think the time w/H, though he doesn't see it, delights her.
M: 16 years Bomb 4/07 OW 20s long gone Divorced 11/09 I remarried New Guy Cooperative r w/X regarding D
I absolutely love your new attitude!!!! You are doing great and have your DB`ing working for you.
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Some comments from a former boss have me wondering if he is interested. i'm not interested in him but I must admit to being somewhat attracted. And I also must admit the attention is flattering and tends to boost my mood.
Please go very slowly down this road. It will cause all kinds of trouble you don`t need right now.
Hang in there. Your baby needs you. Your time will come.
