There and Back

[SallyM]

lol, thanks for that...I worked in a movie theatre the summer karate kid came out, and I swear I saw it a thousand times (lots of down time back then, only 2 theatres in the cinema and all that).

how will the new job affect me? well, we'll need to outlay some cash right off the bat (for instance, he'll need a car, since he has a company one right now). not something I was expecting and it would be better if we could wait until september, but can't be helped. the money is better with this job...base is about 10% more, total package about 50% more than he currently makes, so I suppose that is good (again, we'll have some additional expenses, too). and I'm a little freaked about it working out...its a really different job for him, and what if it doesn't? I'll be screwed, he'll be income free, how will we support out kids, etc, etc, etc.

honestly, the real, or at least immediate, way it affects me is that I'm no part of it. none. I don't get to celebrate with him, I don't get to show how proud I am of him, none of it. I am now an afterthought...she gets to plan/partake in the celebration (oh, and trust me, my vivid imagination has it down pat). this is the first big event of our lives, since we've known each other, over 13 years, that will be like this. yeah, I know there will be many more to come, but oh how it hurts.

on a sidenote, hey, nice perk with the new job, btw, he gets their luxury box at fenway 2x a year...think he'll let me have one of those days...just me and 17 of my closest friends? lol. yeah, I didn't think so, either. wonder if I could sweet talk a judge into writing it in to the divorce decree?

okay, one more hour till the kids are in bed, then I think I'm going to draw a hot bath and light some candles and just find myself again. his successes are his successes...I need to create some of my own, and let go of my part in his. I used to be his biggest cheerleader. obviously, he's confident enough now. my part is over.