breathing in, breathing out, breating in, breathing out.
h just called to say goodnight to the kids. he was in a really good mood...really chatty, mostly kid stories he didn't tell me from the weekend. I asked if he decided about the job, and that is when he told me he was on his way to his boss's house to give his notice. I asked if he had let the other company know, and he had. all this, but me having to ask it. nice. I told him to let me know how it goes...I have no idea why, just curious I guess. more like, just used to being part of big things in his life. he told me he'd talk to me tomorrow. so he can't even give me a call after he talks to his boss? again, nice.
I know, I know, I need to move on, but damn. I'm sure he is going out to celebrate with OW tonight. part of me is tempted to call his mom's later to see how it went, but I won't, because I already know in my heart he won't be there.
just another fun filled reminder that I am no longer a part of his life, except as a previous aquaintance. oh, and the mother of his children.
sorry to be such a downer. I think the flux in my life is scary enough for me, that adding this change, which is a big one, freaks me out.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
