I have very clearly stated to h how I feel...that if things continue the way they are I better not leave the house cause I am sure to have an a once someone gives me the things I am asking for...
h knows what I want and v day was a perfect example...after thanking him for all the gifts I said...do you know what my favorite gift was?? h said yes...the fact taht I gave you two hugs....
so h does get it...he does know...
the day h came home to look for my earings...first thing he did when he got here was pull me aside and give me a hug..
h knows what I want and need...is just cheap with it...
I have been a bit short lately..not sharp just short...h has on a couple occasions...said what's wrong with you?? I say nothing...cause honestly how many friggen times can a woman tell you and in how many different ways...you know you hear her..you know what she wants...how simple it could all be...what are you so afraid of...why don't you want to have a happy wife...what's the big deal...when you come in the door...grab her..hug her tight..kiss her cheek...ask her to sit on the couch with you...she is after all willing to watch your boring repetative cnn with you...say i love you to her...tell her she looks nice...smells nice...tell her something...about her...not the damn dining room wich you didn't want her to do in the first place!!
basically the only way h may wake the hell up is if I stop threatening and actually call a lawyer get the papers and give them to h...
is h even capable of doing the work it would take??? maybe not with me...he did after all convince an ow of his love for her enough so that she would leave her h for him...so maybe h just doesn't belong with me...
LL there never was anything for me to loose cept for the "family" when h left. was part of why he left...he knew I felt that way.
