Mixed signals - catfan's continual saga part???

[catfan]

Hey Babe!!! You know I HAD to check in on you Still limboing and roller coastering I see...I wish I could tell you it stops BUT, that wouldn't be the truth. What I can tell you is that once you stop keeping track, it is like a great weight lifts and you can breathe. Moments of depression and anxiety come back from time to time but when you are really making yourself a better you(and more attractive to W, I might add) it all ebbs and flows much more smoothly.

That meetup.com may be something to check out. Just for ideas mostly Being by myself is sometimes a nice change, I just need to branch out from my regualr places!

Yep there are still ups and downs. Personally I have a lot more ups than downs. She knows how to push my buttons and pull my chain. The worst is as soon as I seemed to be detached she pulls me back in. Well I let her pull me back in.

Friday was D10's birthday, so now she's D11. :-) We sat and chatted a bit about us. I thought it was very, very positive. In it I mentioned it seemed we were both stuck and spinning our wheels which she basically agreed with. I said it may be a good idea for us to get someone to help us navigate it all and figure out where we want to go. To that she said in a fairly positive way, "Yea, I'll think about that." The way she said it, it wasn't dismissive at all but more open to the idea. Her big concern is that we'd go to something with very different goals. Right now I just want us to get to talking and moving forward not matter where it leads us. Sure I would love nothing more than to reconcile and build a new relationship and marriage together but I realize that may not happen. So she thinks we should talk about it this week. We'll see if that happens.