Lin and Will, It is great to hear what you have to say as it does give some comfort. I know I have to look at my sitch and realize tha the goal right now is not to get back with H in our life but as friends but my head is just not getting that thru to my heart.
I definitely need to go get some professional help and put on drugs right now because I am having way too many bad thoughts in my head and crying way too much. Last week I was told that I have bags under my eyes and dark circles which isn't really attractive at all.
It is just so hard to deal when I keep getting information about him on how happy he is now. That's real nice considering he doesn't have his kids in his life. I know he is seeing the OW alot more often these days but I have heard that she is no real prize at all but she has the only thing he wants. Big boobs and sex. I hope that she grows tired of him because I will soon be out of our house and he will be moving back in. Once that happens, he MUST take our kids every other weekend because he is their father, they NEED him in their life and he MUST step up to the plate and start taking this responsibility. Let's see how much she wants to stay with him when he is unavailable every other weekend. She sounds like she is a real party animal too which is the other thing that my H really cares about in his life, just leading the party life. A friend of ours met her and her friend and her friend is just as much as a loser. She has a boyfriend and a husband.
(Sorry didn't mean to go on so much about me but I really needed to vent.)
Me: 41 H: 39 D: 6 S: 4 M-14 T-16 first bomb: 5-12-07 (M dead doesn't really want to work things out.) second bomb: 6-4-2007 (found note he wrote about wanting desperately to be with OW and would have to give up everything) Kelley
