I do not know h...never really did.... I do not know what h does all day... do not know his friends... do not know where he is all day, when he will be home, when he has to leave...
I just don't want to give a rat anymore and I mean it...I am so sick of living my life like this...I tolerated it before it was simply the way my life was....now in the face of all that has happend...ow...separation...wanting d..etc...why should I continue to stay in this r??? why??? h doesn't want to do any of the real work..just wants to make nice nice!!!
maybe some day h will decide to be open and honest with me once again...maybe someday h will want to get down to business and let me be his friend...maybe I'll still be open to the idea but chances are pretty high that by that point I will be spent and just wont care anymore!!!
