And on and on. Nothing necessarily resolved, but I still intend to go. So she thinks I'm selfish. Maybe I am. Maybe I should have spent the money on other things/people. Maybe spending it on this trip/concert is a MISTAKE. If she's going to make this some sort of make or break deal (which I don't necessarily think she'll do, yet I'm prepared for the possibility), then so be it. Hairdog goes on a selfish trip...what an azzhole. I guess I am FLAWED. Maybe she won't love me anymore. Maybe she'll leave me.
Or maybe she won't. Maybe I'll have to endure the silent treatment for awhile, or her outbursts, but we'll get past it. And, maybe, there will even be some benefits to me going on the trip, beyond the fact that it's going to be great to see my friend and spend some time with him and hear some great music. At the very least, I'll be able to look at myself in the mirror and not feel like such a doormat...maybe even respect myself for doing something DIFFERENT and outside of my comfort zone. I doubt she'll share that feeling, but hey, stranger things have happened.
For what it is worth, I think you are taking the perfect attitude on this. You are being strong and a bit aloof without being an azz about it. She seems to be playing the "pity me" card but you are being strong and supportive without buying into the pity me attack. Well done. Go have a blast. Personally, I think it would be hard to be in a bad mood regardless of the home situation while listening to TMBG's.
Gone the carvings and those who left their mark. Gone the kings and queens, now only the rats hold sway.
