(((LL))) I do feel for ya. It seems like each swing of the pendulum is traveling to greater ends. It looks to me you are longing to have your H string those positives into a continuous thread, but H hasn't bridge those gaps yet, but he is closing the gaps. He is IS trying and doing more. At first you recognized a good thing from your H about once a week, then twice a week, maybe three times. Then next is to put two of those days together in a week, then two days together twice in the same week. Its a process creating more better days than bad ones and you are somewhere in the middle of that right now, and unfortuantely it is an agonizingly slow process with no other way to hasten it. It has to be taken one day at a time.
Take a moment and just breath. Allow yourself to relax and empty the thoughts from your mind. Then take some time to read thru your last couple of threads. You will see you have had more positive posts in the last the one before. Slowlee the dynamics are changing. It won't alway be the way it is now.
