Separated from WAW

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Good Monday Morning! The KY distillery trip was great! Got to catch up with the old college guys and their SO's. On eof the girls really hits it off with my W and said she'd call her in a few days to say hi. We are all getting togther Labor Day, but W is not planning on going. Says it would be right, then says it wouldn't feel right. I don't know if she's worried about getting my hopes up, or thinks she would be uncomfortable.
I drive back Sunday morning so I could get cleaned up before heading to the house. W and I gave the dogs baths. Went really well, it was nice doing something so closely together. She was smiling and laughing. We talked a bit just about my trip (she had texted Fri morning as I was enorute to KY to ask if I coudl feed dogs that night. So I called her and 'reminded' that I was on my trip, she said sh frogot). I asked her what she did for teh weekend. Went out with a mutual girl friend that I thought W had been avoiding b/c I knew she had not called her back in a few days. I was going to confront her on this, but now I do not, she really was just too busy all week. They ran into a guy from our high school who was dating W's best friend (again), but not anymore. She ended up karaoking back at his apt with him and roommate I do not know who also attended same school. She said she crashed there due to drinking and dog had meesed her crate when she got home Sun morning. I'm glad she had fun, and trust her completely, but those thougts have a way of eating away. C says I have issues with confrontation. I am thinking about letting her know that while I trust her, this upset me a bit that she's crashing at an apt witha couple single guys. Not sure if thsi is something I should puch or not. We plan on talking in depth about R next week. We need to set boundaries, and this is one I think I should touch on. Just to show her my feelings.
The rest of our date went really well as we had dinner out. I felt we were talking like H and W again. She was far less reserved, and volunteered info instead of me having to probe for her to open up. She checked my wedding ring out more than once, no idea why or what that may mean. She did not have hers on when I got to the house. She was obviously just out of the shower and then we bathed the dogs. She did put them on when she changed for dinner. So no biggie.
W dropped me off at house afterwards. She had to check in on friend's cats while they are away. (Actually were W's cats, but she got rid of them when we moved in together). I was so close to going in for a kiss, but resisted. My goal for next time is some physical contact. A hug? Holding hands? we'll see. But, I have to give it a try.
W asked me soething very curious...I think she is probing me to see if my chages are real/permanent. She asked if I was done going to see the C now that I had my feedback sesh. I gave her a very confused look and said, "no, why would I be done?" She said she figured that since I had my feedback, I would not want to go anymore. I told her I have another sesh Tuesday and that just b/c I knew what my problems were does not mean I know how to change/correct them. She said she was also continuing. She said they hadn;t really touched on our R, she was seeing that she has a lot of things to deal with on her own. I told her that was the point, that we need to realize our own problems and work on ourselves. I Said the M getting better would hopefully be a nice side effect of our efforts to be better people individually. She seemed to really like that. I am feeding the dogs Wed so she can go to her sesh. Plan on leaving her a Thank You type card just saying how I much I aprreciate her efforts, how much I look forward to spending time w/ her, and asking her to give me a call i she has time. My goal is for her to call me just to talk a bit. Any thoughts on if this is too much, or a diff approach? After that past few weeks with no touching, no ILY or I miss you, etc., I just want a chance to evaluate the progress. Also, I hope that helps me going into the weekend and the big R talk. I am hopeful to get back home. Perhaps even part-time, like being there M-Thurs or something, so I am there, but she still gets space on the weekends where we can have our 'date' but other than that, I am out of the house.
Well, that was a ong one! Overall, I'm pretty happy, just the crashing part that keeps me outr of the clouds. I'm sure no big deal, but I need to address my feelings, whetehr with her or just by myself. Can't convince myself it's OK without delving into it at all.