okay, goals for today: I am actually really busy today with just regular life stuff, so that is good. going to set aside some time to work on my childhood journal (a think my therapist has me doing), start the book (the river within) that she gave me, make a few phone calls to set up some social stuff (mainly playdates and one girls night out) and will go thru some stuff in the basement.
doesn't seem like much, but those 4 things are really for me. obviously the first 3 things are, and the last thing is something I need to do if/when we divorce...I can't convince him to get the house ready for market or anything else that gives me comfort (hey, if we don't D, nothing wrong with a fresh coat of paint, right?), but the stuff in the basement is hanging over me and getting it done will make ME feel better regardless.
as for H, well, going to try to block him out a bit today. I don't see him on mondays, so shouldn't be too hard. he just called, and was really cold to me, but I acted friendly/upbeat and am moving on. not going to let it upset me. much.
off to the gym for a much needed workout. fingers crossed for a good day.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
