Thanks for the sites...will definately check them out...It is refreshing to have this site to go to, I hate that anyone has ever had to go through this, but it is comforting to know I am not alone. Talking with friends and having this new family really does help me to cope. I have had a bad day today, cried uncontrollably on my H and could not stop. he was very understanding and held me and let me cry. Sometimes it just helps to cry. I sometimes can not help the thoughts of him touching the Ow and when he touches me I wonder did he touch her like that....did he look at her like that...did he say those things to her like he does to me??? I can not turn that part of my brain off...and I sure do wish I could. I feel so much anger at times...how could he do this to me....He told me he loves me...why would anyone do this to someone they love???? He is starting to realize that when I do vent that it is not to get back at him or to make him feel bad, it is just venting. I guess that is another tiny step in the right direction. He says that he wants this to work and if it makes me feel better to vent then vent. He even cries with me....somthing he never would have let me see before.
M 35 H 44 D 21,D 18,D 17, D 15, D 13, D 11, D 10, S 9 BOMB DROPPED 7/16/07 STILL TOGETHER, TRYING TO WORK IT OUT H ENDED A WITH Ow 7/15/07
