would be nice but would also be quirky and don't know if it would just annoy h...maybe slipping something in his pocket now and then actually I did just do his laundry so could slip a few things in his jeans then I wouldn't know what day it would be...??
on occasion h does give me a random hug...did one morning come up behind me and put his arms around my waist..thing is and always has been the inconsistancy of such things. I wonder what's with the inconsistancy...it's not like I want him to do those things every day..but they seem to come few and far between same a sex...it's not non existant just totally random and major gaps in between. (there were times even before all this that 3 months would pass with not so much as a kiss) we'll see what happens as h seems to wait a bit and then act on what I say in his way. plus there is the whole thing with him feeling that if I ask and then he acts right away it still isn't good enough because I had to ask..ie one night last week I was upset...questioning his love for me etc...h didn't know what to say so said alot of the wrong thing or nothing...the argument went on and on...till I finally said ...it would be very easy to stop all this...all you have to do when I say I feel this way is hug me and tell me you do care...you may not want to hug me but hugging me will make me feel better and then inturn you will feel better. by then it was obviously as h felt to late to give me that hug...so off I went back to bed..only to come back down and ask him to stand up and give me a hug. it really is all a bit ridiulous isn't it?
