Do I want him back?

[forward]

"do you think we get to this stage for we have looked at ourselves and realize what we want in a M and we reassess what we had and find out that it really was lacking a lot?"

I don't know. Maybe. I'm trying to decide what changed. Was he always so disrespectful? I will have to consider.

I must say, I was not very respectful of him in the end, but a lot of it was because H took me so for granted as I did so many things for him that I was pretty disgusted by the person he turned into. (Or that I turned him into? I don't know. Did I create a monster?)

The respect between us has improved. I think H may be realizing that my "easy" chores were not so easy.