Her and I got into a fight on the phone today. She finally let go of all the anger she had towards me. She insulted me to the deepest levels. She knows how to push my buttons. And she did. She hit me in places that she controls well. My self esteem (she called me physically REPULSIVE), my abandonment issues from being a child (That she should have left me years ago and I was never good enough for her) and many many other things.
This has left me to the point where I have no hope. None. Every person I've ever cared about in this world has moved on or past me without even a thought...except my children. So I come back to the place I've always been. That I'm not good enough for anybody. I don't belong. I never will.
I hope you WILL recheck this thread because you need to know that anyone that would be so cruel to a man whose children she bore, was never worth the sweat it took to erect the pedestal you've put her on. Even in MLC, there are typically limits to where we go when we're spewing. Your wife can't even use MLC as an excuse for herself. Shame on her.
Let me tell you something else. No one is put on this earth to be pissed on, do you understand that? Not by strangers and certainly not by someone that claims to have cared about us, even once upon a time. The behaviors and actions of your wife are not a reflection of your worth. They are a DIRECT reflection of her inhumanity. She is not justified. It has not been deserved and it DAMN SURE doesn't warrant any validation on your part.
If I could make a wish for you and have it come true it would be that I would hear there came a day that you told her just where she could get off. I know you love her but she is obviously not who you thought she was. And at the end of THIS day, that woman is not worth the effort it would take you to spit.
I pray someone crosses your path and shows you your value in this world, independant of your children's mother.
