I think my H has been stringing me along I dont know why excatly but maybe b/c he knows that w/three tiny ones I can take him for everything he's got.

I finally had an attorney review the agreement papers H had me sign. The attroney opened my eyes! I did not know that I did not HAVE to swap claiming the kids for taxes every year b/c I am the primary caretaker & H does make a good amount more than I. This is what H had written up on the papers. Also, she told me that even though I had already signed & notorized it was not set in stone b/c the papers did not state that I waive my appearance in court. Therefore, if H tried to file before me w/ these papers he can do so,but all I have to do is tell the judge that I have changed my mind on some things since I signed it.

I thought maybe my H would tke meup on moving back in by this weekend but he din't (again like he said he would). So, I have decided I am not waiting any longer. AND even though I will continue foward w/ the D - I did a no no by DB standards I guess b/c I knew this would be my last time having sex w/ H. H came by to give me some $ and I kept calling him back for little things. I gave him "the look" which H knows that look plus he knows for soem reasion I have been really needy in that sense the past week. I guess knowing this was gonna be our "last time" I did not care if he was using me and then going back to her. He kept saying how he needed to go meet some people & I just gave him the look. He was pulling open my chest drawers & said good all of these aren't filled up yet & dont cuz I will be using them soon. I said yeah I am tired of hearing that u have said that for the past couple of months now & I dont belive it anymore.
He gae me a look kiss me on the forehead and then grabbed me like he was "doing me a favor". I said oh dont be giving me no pity sex either. Needless to say we did it. Call me the guy- no I am saying I dont feel bad b/c all I wanted was sex, alittle run in the hay for old times sake!
Afterwards I told him if he wants me to contiunue w/ hiring the attorney. He asked what I wanted frm him if I wanted him to move back in. I paused gave him a good long look "like well, no not if you dont want too!" I said I am no longer gonna live in limbo anymore. THen I showed him my attorneys business card & told him I needed his fininacial affadavit. He said if I wanted to file then go a head b/c he was not going to do it. He said fine blow your money on that & I replied that my grandfather was helping me. H knows I dont have the $ for it & therefore thats why I have not done a thing. I know he still prolly thinks I will not go thru w/ it. He will be surprised.


God what is it w/ these OW? WHat kind of wicked hold is it they have on our H's?????