My names Corinda and I have just found this site. I will give some info on my situation – I will try to keep it short.
Together 15 year married 9.5 – no kids.
5 years ago we tried to have kids, had problems mostly H issues tried IVF everything nothing worked. We never really dealt with the problem just sort of brushed it under the rug, then I started drinking and could be quite nasty at times, I was just hurting. 1 month ago H cell phone rang it was a good friend of ours so I answered it, while on the phone a TXT came thru so I looked and then found all these flirty messages hidden under another name, so I confronted him and did the scream, tears etc he said it was all just friends and nothing was happening that he was confused and did not know what he wanted and needed space, when I pushed it all came out, how unloved he felt, how I crippled him emotionally with all the baby stuff but that he wanted to work it out, well the first week went well then on the Friday night I was drinking and he came home and I was an emotional wreck and let him have it and went on and on about this girl, he just walked out and stayed out all night, he then moved into our 2nd bedroom as said he needed space. I could not let it go and just pushed and pushed and the more I pushed he ran to her saying they are not having sex just friends because she would not have an affair with a married man. But he still goes out all night does not come home telling me he can’t deal with all the anger and R talking all the time. Last week I just lost and threw my wedding rings at him and walked out saying lets separate, and he has to move out and to change the bank accounts, sell the house stuff and them left for 5 days. This is not what I really wanted, I wanted him to beg me to stay and of course he didn’t. We had a talk 4 nights ago he said that we are separated and he is moving out in a months time, and that he would not rub salt in the wound by parading his “friend” around our friends etc. I agreed with all this but told not to write us off just yet, he said no he would not but he needed to be away from all the bad stuff. Then said we need to deal with all the bank amount changes, he said this is what you wanted. I spent 7 days bunking with friends and stuff and have had enough, so told him on Saturday that I was moving home, he said if you’re comfortable with it. So came home Saturday as I have a home office and went to work, he went out but came back later that evening while I was still working and made a point of coming in to say that I can sleep in the main bedroom because he was going out and not coming home, well he came home this morning 24 hrs later and was all hi how are, are you home tonight, do you want dinner, just like it was nothing, he knows how much this is breaking me, its like he wants to really hurt me, I can see it in his eyes, This has all happened in a month, I don’t want this relationship to end and I have accepted my part in the breakdown of the marriage and am seeing a counselor and dealing with the issues but he just seems out for blood. I am at wits end and do not know what to do, I am sick of me screaming and yelling about this as I know it only pushes him further away and am trying to suck it up and hope he sees what he’s doing.
