It's going to be a bumpy ride

[Trixi]

lol about the tough veneer. really? me? or maybe I just come across online as tougher/stronger than I am. who knows.

as for the kiss on the cheek, H pulled that on me and I told him never, ever to do it again. I wasn't his aunt (insert choice swear word prior to, "aunt") and wouldn't be treated as such. lol.

Now, see! That is what I mean about the tough veneer. *I* stood there with my lower lip quivering and tears welling up. great.

That was my big mistake all along though - being too available. I did great with GAL, getting out, doing things, but he never really felt he might lose me (or so he says now - I do actually recall him worrying quite a bit a few times, but it just wasn't enough).

I am absolutely positive that my H is confident that I will be waiting. I have been waiting (in a sense)for years; why would this be any different? Of course, he also knows that I value the sanctity of marriage and that since this is my first marriage, I *especially* want it to work out. He has said that he knows I won't wait forever, but I think deep down he thinks I will.

What would you have done differently to make him realize that it was possible to lose you? Does he agree that you made yourself too available?
(this is good stuff, btw- thanks!)

Edited to add:
I just saw that you posted a big post while I was typing mine. If you addressed my questions in your post, just ignore these ones. Unless you feel compelled to elaborate.... Ok- now I am going to go read your post.