Trudging up hill

[ediemarie]

You can stop in and vent any time. H you, like Light Switch also have something tangible to fight for! Your S is soooo important, and so worth the fight. You will ALWAYS have your wife in your life even if you guys D. ALWAYS. Graduations, weddings, births of grandkids...your lives are connected. I know I'm preaching to the choir just hang in there!!!

It dawned on me today that one of my major problems with his A is that I'm jealous. But it's not just being jealous of the affection he is bestowing on another woman. It's that I'm jealous of the excitment of new experiences, of learning all about someone else, of hearing the details of another's life and feeling that tingle, of thinking those thoughts. I miss having first kisses. I do.

There. I said it. And I think it's dangerous to express those thoughts because I really don't want to open myself up to an affair. But if there were ever a time when I were most vulnerable to having one, it has to be now! I need to keep focused...