w came by this morning to pick s up and has ended up spending the day here. nothing big, just watching tv, i was playing with s. made s lunch and we put him down for his nap.
then w wants to talk, again the so confused talk, can't make a decision, feels alone and hurt. no divorce talk, but she did say at this point i could tell her to go to hell and she would understand. only thing i can make from all of this is at this point she can't go forward with the divorce, would rather have me pull the trigger, but feels like she can't go forward with me either.
well after listening for some time i opened my mouth, told her she didn't need to be alone, we talked about our issue, and she thinks and i agree it is communication. i asked her if something like that is worth ending it. she said no, i told her it is a skill that can be learned and all this could be fixed. pushing i know. well she came back with the coming home talk, but nothing to commit to.
she finally said she needs to go shower and clean her place, and process and think some things through. s is napping and she said she will be back soon.
i have to stop pushing, but i can't keep doing this, we are both losing weight to a point that it is not good. she looks better than i do, but i keep eating and nothing is sticking.
