We ran out of gas on our way home from church. I thought I had enough gas to make it to the next station but I didn't. S20 was talking to his dad on the phone trying to set their get together. They were supposed to play putt-putt golf but it has been raining here all night and all morning. So they are going to go out to eat.

So Jim brought gas to us. We sat for probably a half hour while he got a can and brought us gas. I got out and both of the boys. We were all around him while he put gas into the van. The boys talking to him and I told him how sorry I was. He said it was no problem. I was just getting ready to get back in to start the van and looked at his vehicle and heroin was sitting in his vehicle watching us. I did really acknowledge her in any way because I really just glanced that way. I wasn't really expecting him to bring her with him. At first I was terribly hurt but talked to myself all the way home about how it is good that she is stuck to him like glue. My friend at church said she will give it 6 months and they will be apart. I hope she is right, it would be nice if he is more involved with us for the holidays this year.

When I got home, I called H and thanked him and apologized for not doing that face to face. I explained to him that I had to go to the bathroom really bad. He chuckled and said that was alright. He was glad he could help us. Then we began talking about S17's pictures and some of the posed. I told him that when the proofs came back, I would call him and we could sit down here with S17 and look and them and thin them out.

He said that sounds great and we chatted just a little and I told him to have a great afternoon and said goodbye. I hope heroin was still with him and listening us chat.

I feel good about our recent interactions and feel as if we will be back in a much closer relationship before Tyler graduates.

Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.