Madonna/Whore Complex (part 7)

[Heywyre]

HW, One day at a time and you will all get there.

I know Lou, but sometimes it just seems overwhelming

As much as I feel my H has been there for me in presence, there is very little emotional/physical contact from him. Right now I feel I need to have someone put their arms around me and just say "it will be ok" - is that so difficult?

For instance, he said he would take me out for supper last night, not only to celebrate me starting my new job, but also as a "release" of sorts from the hectic week I just went through. Then he asks if it was "ok" if his friend came along. I know I should have said "no, it would be nice to just be alone" I was just not in the mood to deal with it so I said it was okay - and I don't mind sometimes, he's a nice guy

Then when we get home, he says he is tired and wants to lay down for a while (once again, it would have been nice to talk a little but I knew he was tired from working 4 nights in a row) so I thought, well, he will lay down for a while and then we can talk for a bit

No, he gets up and goes straight to bed, no goodnight, no nothing. That was it, I went in the room and said "what, I don't even get a "I'm going to bed now" from you?" He just laughed it off and said, "come on to bed and cuddle me" - to which I just walked out of the room and closed the door

This morning I told him I was mad at him for what he did and he just brushed it off and told me not to be "so silly"

Those are the things that really irk me - there is no sensitivity in his blood at all. Come on, is it not obvious that his spouse needs a little attention after a week like I have had?