Moving Forward,......taking baby steps.

[~Sol]

My crazy wife is now referring to me as her XH. Not H, or separated, but already calling me her X. How weird is that? Not much, considering she is not right in her head yet....she's bitter, jealous, and is still not happy - yet she acts "normal" around me, but I can sense when she's upset about something - she'll quickly get angry, raise her voice, and start blaming and lashing.....of course she still believes everything's my fault....she's not to blame at all.

This is what I am putting up with. I'm just trying to be the sane parent for my daughter. W is still confused about where my daughter will go to school. I told her that she needs to be in her current school, where her friends are, she gets good grades, and they identified her as being gifted. The city schools here are much better than the next city where they are struggling in the school system. Where my D is at is a much better school. W still complains about not having any gas money to pick her up (lame excuse), she's complaining she's broke (she has money in the bank - I saw), and she refuses to take my daughter when I need time to study - but I can fix this easily.

All in all, she's still nuts. Doesn't look at herself at all, and even her own co-workers are starting to see her irrational behavior regarding her marriage. Her own kids don't like being with her, so that should tell her something - she pointed this out to me one time and said she can't figure out why her own son doesn't want to be with her, but prefers his step-dad: Me.

I'm doing better at detaching, sometimes her craziness is too much for me, and that's when I need to ignore her more. My biggest concern will always be the welfare and care of my daughter, she's way too young and she needs her mom and dad, or at least one sane parent. I'm just trying to do the best, sometimes I wonder if I can do more.