When's it my turn?

[SDFoundGirl]

Ahhhh, Liz! Can't even THINK about what I've been up to since I last talked to you. It's been a long, sloooow recovery w/H. I actually think that's a good thing because we're both using our brains. I thank God everyday that H is, at his core, an amazing, smart, thoughtful human being!!!

We're still in MC, and that's good. I've actually spent the past few months stating what I want and was missing from the M, real progress for me since I'd held off for so long and hadn't trusted that H would be receptive. I finally got to the point where I knew I needed to ask for what I wanted. I've also spent about the past month letting go of my feelings about LW (that whore H was writing letters to). Now, I've come a LOOOOONG way, but you can tell by the whore comment that I still have some work to do. I think that's more habit than anything....I really believe he's let go of those feelings. We talked about them in MC, and he finally admitted to his feelings last March or so.

I feel blessed. I've learned that staying lovingly detached is the best thing for my M. I don't take H's actions or feelings personally. I put myself and my happiness first--it's the best thing I can do for my M. If SD is feeling good, she can be supportive of H and fully engaged in the M.

I am happy, free of fear, hopeful, filled with joy. This is the result of DBing and the whole crappy mess we went through last summer. Worth it? You bet!

How's your journey been?

SD