Thanks ROOT trying to see the silver lining in all of this. Last night was really wierd, some strange texts from H. He was texting me about really nothing, and we were having a conversation about the X Games. Something he was NEVER interested in before, but it is something the OW is interested in. I went along with it, but my friend told me that it was really rude of him to talk to me about those things, without even thinking it might bother me. I didn't let me bother me, because I just realized he is just not himself and he just is not thinking. I think right now he just sees me as a friend? Not sure. I am trying not to read into it to much.
H gets off work early today and he is going to have the kids from dinner on until tomorrow night. This will be the longest he has had the kids, and that I have been away from them. I know that the OW has the day off work, and he already told the kids they are going to have shishkabobs and have an x games watching party. trying not to let it bother me, but it does, cuz i know this all comes from OW. It is actually funny to see that he is giving up so much of his true self right now and taking on the OW's interests, etc. That is the sort of thing you do with highschool boy friends and girlfriends isn't it? Just thinking out loud here.
Tonight I am going out with a friend to go dancing and drinking. It will be the first time out, and although I am excited, I am sort of freaked about it. I know it will be good to not be here by myself all night, but part of me wants to cancel. I have to go get something to wear, since I really don't have anything. I have been a sahm for so long that my wardrobe consists of jeans, tank tops, and flip flops. LOL
wish me luck, that i dont chicken out, and that i have a good time tonight.
