Hi all,

I really am disappointed that I don’t have a chance to read all of your situations and reply. I only recognize a handful of you from last December. I can’t help wonder what happened to all those poor, broken, hurt souls.

Things chug along here in Iraq. The days are long, but the weeks are short. It’s really a great feeling to be part of history and be part of something bigger than myself, feelings about us being here aside. I have my own feelings about that, but we are all here to do a job and support other sons, daughters, dads, moms, etc.

I wrote W. and asked for S9’s camp address so that I could send him postcards so that he gets mail while he’s away from home. She send the address and actually ended it with “hope you’re OK”. Haven’t heard that since…….??? Oh yeah…never. Nothing to get worked up about.

Here’s a couple of questions:

1. She does not write me or send anything. Should I write to her and just share general information to try and keep any small line of communication open?
2. Should I ask to speak with her when I call the kids at home? She has never asked to speak to me? Des it show interest, weakness????? Who knows. It certainly doesn’t show classic pursuit. I hevn’t done any of that in months.
3. It almost gets to the point where I begin to turn my sadness into hate and utter frustration by her inability to ever have any kind of contact without almost always getting irritated over seemingly innocuous stuff.

I’d love to hear from you guys. I apologize for being “FLTC-Centric” these days, but I’m working to squeeze meals, sleep and an occasional shower into my 16 hour day!

Mark: I'm glad you can relate to my paralyzing anxiety over the stupidist sh*t. Her reaction to stuff was totally irrational. For years, she couldn't have cared about our lawn. One day, before we separated, she began to rant about how I never took any initiative for the brown spots on the lawn, among other things. Mind you, I mowed the lawn weekly, trimmed around the flower beds...etc, but couldn't seem to repair the brown spots. WHAT?????????

CatFan: You are still in the same place you were last year. Don't worry about the not wanting to reconcile right now. Concentrate on the NOT wanting to divorce part. This is a 1/2 full deal for you. Try not to get hung up on he "Scraps" of attention that she throws you. Let it roll off your back. Roger. Being alone sucks.

I could really use a beer(s)!!!!!