bil hasn't stoped by and i don't think he will. he has some things going on in town and sounds busy. last night i was waiting for a good friend to come by, the neighbors are getting ready for a wedding, sort hit hard watching the bride to be dancing around with her veil on. hit in a good way, just reaffirmed what w and i have been through and what i want.
well friend came by, we had a few beers but not much. i haven't seen him a while, he has been really busy with work and his gf. we both went to school together and i have wanted to work with him for some time. well last night i got the job interview with his dad and his partner. i actually know them both really well, camping and other activities, so i figure the job is mine so long as we can all agree on the terms. pretty stoked about that.
well no real contact between w and i yesterday. her constant calling has stopped. but she is busy with family. she dropped s off this morning and it went great. no real affection or big positives, but absolutely no d talk, or r talk. she told me what she has been up to, i told her about the job, which we have both been excited about and expecting for some time. she was really happy about it and told me congrat's.
she seems to be doing really well outside of her mil, who is really withdrawn and not helping the sitch. mil is blaming her, is really harsh towards her and makes her feel horrible. thought about trying to get that under control, but no matter what i do, mil has always been that way, so even if she agreed, like she has before she would just revert to her past behavior. so i guess leave it as is. w doesn't have much contact anyway with her, so that is a plus.
well the plan tonight is to review the journal, posts, and reasses my sitch. read through dr and set new goals and arrange the plan. things seem to be going in the right direction, i just need to start doing some more positives. especially gal, i skip out on a lot with the friends, and need to do more. funny thing is, i'm not just sitting at home, just sort unmotivated towards that part of my life. espcially since, that was one of her largest compliants, that i focused too much on friends and activities outside of the house.
