Thanks Atlas, I've read the book already. Actually more like skimmed. I definitely need to go back and read it again. Its all just very discouraging at times. She went out last night for drinks with people from work, and I was really okay with that. Didn't think about it, had fun with the kids. She came home actually earlier than I had expected. In the past when she would get home from being out, she would usually want to ML after having had a few drinks to loosen up. I was hoping that would happen last night. Not necessarily ML, but just some cuddling. She wasn't into it. I need to stop that also, but that's a tough one.