its not just about hormones (although i have lots of those :-)
its more about affection.
"taking care of things by myself" doesnt give me affection.

If my wife decides to come back.. I wont have doubts about making the decision to try again with her.
my doubt is that she will ever decide to do so (at the level of her actually putting effort into it)

you're right in everything else you said. i know that already....
but it's nice to hear it from someone else.
Thank you.

It's just tough to wait it out.
if it wasnt for my children, i should just "go dark", probably. But after consistently showing them for a year, that I'd like mommy to come back... I don't think they would or could understand me changing like that. they'd think i had just given up. I dont think they're old enough to understand, so i'll try to stay the same.


oh well. tomorrow night, i'll have my first "grown-ups only' social night. bowling with a buncha people. should be fun \:\)

sounds like you're getting on with life yourself nicely and keeping yourself occupied. i'm glad \:D

My current status: june 2006. Wife ran out and filed D.
Finalized Jan 11, 2010, after 12.5 years M.
3 wonderful sons caught in the middle