Thanks ROOT, yes I had decided to give it a 6 month time frame, although that is going to make the holidays sticky. I did get pretty down today, but my best friend in the whole world was able to talk me through it. She went through a three year seperation and is reconciled with her husband, except she was the one who walked out. She has been my rock and my brain of reason.
Yeah I think I will hold off on the personal birthday card, but make the appointment for the photo next week.
I almost broke down and texted him that I missed him, was missing him something horrible today (saw him this morning to get money and he looked REALLY good). but i did not do it. i realized there were three scenario responses, either he would not respond, or he would be nasty, or he might respond by saying he misses me too. all of which would have drove me crazy in one way or another.
