Thank you Being Me and Confident me...... so much to think about and so much to lose and so much to gain.
Confident me your post made me weep.. my parents divorced when I was 8 and so this is why I try so hard against all odds to make this work.... and yes I lean on God to help me through or I would be committed by now with how much he does to me.
and Being me.... yes I should go far , far away and I want to but I cannot expalin why I forgive him again and again. Maybe when I love myself enough I will say stop or maybe I just trust God too much? But I also wonder why do I have such a cross to bear and why do I not walk away from someone so sick? Others have stress but they easily turn their back and walk away....
I really love you all and you give me so much to think about..... maybe that is why everyone but my H loves me so much and even perfect strangers b/c I am a child of God and I shine even when he ( my H ) wants to put me in the dark....... Perfect strangers smile at me and help me as if they had known me all their life..... You all are such a blessing to me and I truly Thank God For this website or otherwise I dunno where I would be.....
This is going to be extremely difficult and I have so much to work on.... God help me.... I dunno if I will make the right choice and if he will do this the rest of my life.... I cannot live that way........ Thank you all for your thoughts they mean the world to me........ I am blessed to have such beautiful people in my life........
