Thanks you all you are so sweet and yes he is being very abusive ..... I grew up this way and vowed never when I am grown.

Being me..... I wish I could meet you in person you seem to know what to say to get me really thinking!

~ well you all do and you all have made me feel so special~
...... but may I say that yes I have apparently volunteered to be his scapegoat and I am very tired of allowing it.

I feel like a fool for loving him still. I feel like a fool if I walk away and I feel like a fool for loving someone who cannot love me in return .

.....who no matter how hard I try is still...... JUST..... empty.

No matter what I do he is still empty... I simply seem to him to not do enough to show my love........ UGGGGGGGGGH.
He is very , very sick to say the least and what he said the other day plays and plays in my head over and over again. YUCK!!!!!!!!!



I need to get help and I do so appreciate everyones input.... he needs help but too.... Praying for a real Miracle cause he thinks he is just fine..... \:\(
God bless...