I am just writing to VENT. I just talked to H he is about 2 hours away. I can feel the anxiety starting all over again. I ask if he was going to be around tonight and he said that a friend of his ( that has been a pain to me all our marriage is flying home to day and he has to meet him over some business that might help H and BIL) This guys has been divorce 5 times, lived with more, a con man. and not a good influence. I know he will meet him but also will have the other W meet him over there at this guys house. How convenient.....I know I should be stronger but I guess deep down I still have some feelings for him like all of us and he has moved ahead with out me. I just need help emotionally.......I thought he would aleast stop and see his S and his parents but like always he comes first.
I know now where I stand and I don't know why it bothers me so much. I guess I have always been a caring person.
