Hey Ali, sorry to see you going through this. The ups and downs are incredible aren't they?
One second I want to walk away and never look back, here is your money, actually it will be EFT'd so I won't have to see you, take it and shutup. We'll have a third party handle the transfer of our kids for visitation. I just want to never see her again. I can't believe I tried this hard for this long for someone to just look at my effort and say, "I told you I was done a long time ago".
The next second I think, God can still do miracles and surely God wouldn't want my kids to suffer, look at what they are going through already. I can do this. I can take it. I can put myself aside, take her crap, her nights out to all hours, texting and calling constantly and all hours. All of it, I can take if I can just keep things together so my kids aren't hurt.
What a ride Ali. I feel for you. I wish there was something I could do to help.
Hang tough, you will be okay regardless of the outcome.
