Spending so many evenings alone makes me feel that I am not doing a great job on the GAL front - so thanks for those encouraging words. Also the missing item may have been handed in, I'll find out on Monday, so good news there.
As an update to my sitch, my W came round unexpectedly today, she needed to check something in the house. It's the first time I've seen her for just over two weeks. It felt really weird. The conversation was fine, a bit about what we've been up to, how we've been, houses, etc. I was generous, as ever. She left quite quickly since she said she didn't want to prolong what was something that felt strange to her - and she had another appointment. We weren't meant to be seeing each other for another 3 weeks - a break in our pre-agreed dark period.
If nothing else it confirmed that I am still deeply in love with her; that I find her incredibly attractive and feel a huge sense of loss, confusion and emotion just being around her. If we don't work out it's going to take a very, very long time to get over. It was good to see her, but it is really hard too. I guess I should just be thankful that I have experienced that intensity of love in my life, if nothing else - which is great. I still find love utterly amazing.
Morgan, I wonder how my W feels about me and my new job? She doesn't say much, other than asking what I am going to spend the money on! It's a change of industry but not profession for my too. How do you feel about not being part of your H's change of job? It's weird not having my W to consult. I miss that.
Well, time to go back to detaching, calming down a bit and working out how I get more social interaction into my life.
Take care all.
Max
Me 36 W 37 Bomb (Easter 07) Sep (WAW July 07) "It's over" (end Oct 07) T10.5 years, M2 (before bomb)
