Little contact yesterday, just VM’s really. Seemed odd, since lately the calls are pretty often at this point, but I expected it with family in town. Dropped s off this morning. Thought BIL would be there so I brought everyone breakfast, but only W. She said it was a good gesture anyway.
W was pretty tired, said it wasn’t a late night or anything just tired. She went and laid back in her bed, and S and I ate breakfast. She asked me to come in a talk to her, I sat on the edge of her bed. No serious stuff, just chit chat. Then she stated that she wished I didn’t have to go to work. Oh ya why? Well, for one I could sleep while you watched him, ouch, but we could all spend the day together, yaaa.
Just feels weird right now. Not really sure what to say, had to get to work early, so just said, well I have to go, I guess I’ll see you tomorrow morning (when she drops s off). She suddenly sits up and says, why tomorrow, her tone was saying aren’t we going to see each other today. Funny thing is if, I pursue at all she runs so fast the other way. So I just stated, well everyone is going to the race tomorrow, so I’ll probably just be hanging around the house tonight if you or BIL want to come by. No response, just a smile and good bye.
So, I guess the deal is, she feels wanted, if I let her know I want her, verbally, she pulls back. If I am there, and sit there and keep my mouth shut everything goes well. Just can’t analyze every detail, like above. Well, I’ve committed to two goals this weekend with my relationship.
1. No matter what, I’ll keep my cool with BIL if we talk. I’ll hear his point of view and keep in mind that I would protect my little sis as well. 2. I’m going to read DR again, and spend some time rewriting questions, goals, etc.
