H I am proud of you my man. You laid it out there, with the idea you did not want to regret anything 2 yrs from now. That is admirable in anyone's book. I know we all have wanted to do this, tonight was one of those times for me. We are all afraid of the exact reactions you got tonight.
Its almost like you did each and every one of us a favor. Why? Because we get to watch and see what happens in this convo of yours. We all hope it goes well. Yes, surely it violated all sorts of DB guidelines, but that is all they are, guidelines. Sometimes you do go with your gut. I would guess if you were in front of a very wise C, and were able to say what you said, she might have opened up more. But it sounds like she is like my W and has a really hard time saying to you what she FEELS. My W has said almost everything you quote in here, "I feel better when you are not around". Any you went where I want to go, WHY?, (WTF does that mean? - you did not say it but I am sure you were thinking that). We all want to say WHY????
So as not to reciprocate the War and Peace diatribe, I think you are going to be Ok from this and it was not as bad a result as you might think. You may not even think that? I think there will be positives that come out of it. A wake up call maybe?
Sleep well my friend.
Me: 46 Wife: 39 D: 13 S: 11, 9, 7 Bomb 3.2.07, Sep Same Day, D papers 11.1.07 Current Status - Wants to take me through Discovery, I will go to prison first.