well the build up of anger passed, as it always does. well around 5, w still hadn't called today. sort of odd since she has been calling non stop about anything.
so i picked s up at day care. thought about it for a while and thought, well i don't want to push, but her big issue is that i wasn't there in the past and now i am. so i called, she didn't answer, i knew she wouldn't, she is teaching her therapy sessions. left a message. can't recall all but "hey just picked up s, he had another great day at day care, hope work is going well, have fun tonight (this is her friday and i figured she would be going out with family in town and all), so i guess i'll see you tomorrow, call if you need a driver. bye"
well she called back later that evening but i was bathing s, and never heard it. she left a vm, said hey i got your message, give me a call. i called back no answer, class should have been done, but i didn't leave a vm. left it at that.
heimlich, everything you posted above came out the other night, she said she scared, i said me too, went the whole rounds. no she keeps saying that she doesn't want to string me along, so i'm back to shutting up and observing.
feeling good though and having a good time. tomorrow will suck. everyone i know is leaving town and i can't. i was supposed to do a big race saturday, but with the new smoking habit, haha. almost all of my friends are going to that. a few others are heading out for some camping and four wheeling, but i already have s, saturday night. whole fam is on a cruise in the caribean, so it looks like i might be sitting alone in the borne ultimatim on saturday. hmmmm????
