From what I've read from your sitch, it seems you've become a strong, confident, calm woman. Your H started this stuff because he's a bully and feels like he's losing control. He is sick and out of control.
Dear one...he is abusive. All the things he said and threatened to do...that's about him, not you. Please don't take his words to heart. But he IS abusive. Do you want to save you M at any cost? Until he deals with himself, with whatever is sick inside him, he's no good to you.
Fear is not a reason to stay. Making strong choices for the right reasons...well, somehow they have a way of working out. You don't see how you could do it financially, but there's got to be a way. And that's down the line even. Pray, meditate, use affirmations, whatever your belief system is and just trust that what you need will be there for you when you need it.
He is not safe to be around. A man who would say and do what he did in front of his children is not safe to be around. Is there somewhere else he could go? If you're afraid, you could file a restraining order against him...your first priority needs to be for YOU and YOUR CHILDREN.
You can do this. You are goodness, light and love. You are strong and capable. You have the power to face anything and triumph over it. You can't change H, you can only change you and set up boundaries.
If there's anything I can do, please tell me.
SD
Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!
