Are you on medication? If not, see a doctor and get on it... it really helps. You'll probably have to change it up a few times to really get on track, but stay with it.
Yep. Adderall. It made, I think, a big difference in my ability to focus. And yes, I keep track of these things by means of journaling.
I'm going to a meeting in a couple of minutes, but I also wanted to mention the following situation, which happened Monday night. I said to W, "I want to ML." She politely said, "No thanks. I'm too tired." I was having trouble getting to sleep so I went downstairs, took care of myself (psst - euphemism for MB) and went back upstairs to bed. She asked, "what were you doing downstairs?" Having discussed this very scenario with my counselor the week before, and my usual, dishonest response such as "got a glass of milk", and with the awareness of the NG tendency to LIE to cover up those shameful things about us that might make us not-so-nice in others' eyes, I said, "Are you sure you want to know the answer to that question?" She said, "what...where you jacking off?" H: Yes, as a matter of fact, I was. W: You know, you don't need to tell me that kind of thing. H: I don't want to lie to you. You deserve the truth. W: No, that is just so "in your face." You can exercise some discretion in what you tell me.
