I think I want to give up. HELP!!!

[NeedSomePatience]

I think I want to give up. OM is gone for about 2 weeks, out of country, and she has said she is going to do things with me during that time because she couldn't while he is here. I think I am just going to enjoy that time with her, sort of like a "last hoorah" and then take the next step (whatever that is) to making this happen. I can't live like this anymore. She makes me feel like we are getting closer, and that she is getting suspicious of OM, but she is still madly in love with him (based on how I hear her talk to him on phone, and I know I shouldn't be snooping in on conversations). I am trying to stay strong, but it is getting too hard. I need love too and it hurts too much.