The lack of affection is killing me. Amazing how much a hug from the person you love makes you feel so much better. Not having that is one of the things I miss the most. That and the casual touching that you have when you're in a long relationship. Having to stop/consider hand placement still just seems bizarre, you know?
BD
BD, I really know what you are talking about. Not being able to go and just being able to hug your spouse after everything the 2 of you have been thru is just the oddest feeling. We have been thru so much with the births of our 2 children, sitting in the NICU with our son after he was born and now to him it's as if none of that happened and we are only strangers to one another.
Me: 41 H: 39 D: 6 S: 4 M-14 T-16 first bomb: 5-12-07 (M dead doesn't really want to work things out.) second bomb: 6-4-2007 (found note he wrote about wanting desperately to be with OW and would have to give up everything) Kelley
Oh man That brought a tear. I went through that one w/ W with 2 of ours.
OK, Think positive everyone!
Me: 46 Wife: 39 D: 13 S: 11, 9, 7 Bomb 3.2.07, Sep Same Day, D papers 11.1.07 Current Status - Wants to take me through Discovery, I will go to prison first.
Oh, man, sorry to bring everyone down. I'm feeling pretty good. It's just not having seen her for 10 days, I had to restrain myself from giving her a big hug and kiss when I first saw her. Just felt . . . strange. A little sad, but also a little anger on my part because I'm increasingly realizing that she could choose to try to make our M work and she isn't. Still, was upbeat with her anyway.
Kelly/CVA, we were fortunate in that both girls were born without any trouble, but our oldest had torticullus (extra tight muscle) in her kneck, and there were some painful procedures I had to be there for as they figured it out. Never fun to see your kid in pain.
Onward and upward. All positive thoughts from here on out. OK, almost all positive thougths from here on out, I'm sure I'll get cranky now and again.
Alles ist gut,
BD
My latest
Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY
Yes Please Positive thoughts...........You guys are bring'n me down....Just when I thought I couldn't feel any worse!
I was thinking last night that my W and I have been together for probably close to 18 years. That is almost half of my life! Now I'm bringing myself down....I'll be back I have to get read the success stories for a while.
BD....Sounds like you got a good PMA! Stick with it.
Feeling pretty good, Matt. Before I forget (I have the attention span of a 2 year old on a sugar high at the moment), have a great time in Ocean City. Seriously, try to get some time alone with the W. Dig your toes in the sand. Make fun of some drunk teenagers together. Eat some bad boardwalk food (you're too skinny, remember ;))
Just have some fun, eh?
BD
My latest
Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY
