I am feeling now just like I did last year.... I feel numb and at the same time so full of pain. know I will be ok but i have no appetite and no strength today.. he came home this am after sleeping who knows where to brush his teeth and change his shirt and did not even talk to the kids... broke my heart. I dunno where I will start over.. I cannot afford to stay in my home and w/4 kids it will be hard to find a cheap house...... I am doing not so well. I know I will be ok but this is really hard for me.
Thank you all for your kind words they help so , so much.
he has not mentioned for us to go get a D yet but I am sure it is coming.. I just do not understand why he is doing this again. I feel so bad for my kids and know he will get worse with his "problem" before he gets better. I do not want to call and talk to him and yet I do ,, I dunno why. After all the mean things he said yesterday. He even said if you think your "private part" ( he said something vulgar not that word) is so special you are wrong I can find that anywhere,,, you do nothing for me and you are not special. and the comment about OW just was too much also.... I am devastated but know I need to keep going for my kids.... but this ache in my heart is too much. God help me.....
Wow... I dunno if I have it in me to do this again... I am exhausted.
