Hey Will,
Don't let this get you down too much. You sound like you are in a better place than I am since it sounds like she is talking to you about things. I had to skim thru most of your posts. I think that I would be alot happier if I had some of what you have but I know anything less than together is tough.

She is talking to you about remaining friends which is a good thing and that is what you should hold on too. Alot of friends develop a very loving relationship. Concentrate right now on just working to be a good friend to her. Sort of like you have to crawl before you walk. Once she feels good with you as a friend then work on taking it to the next step. I would be even happy if my H would be dealing with me as a friend as he talks more to our friends then he ever talked to me. He would talk to them the whole time at a party but never ever said one word to me.

BTW, where are you a policeman at in NJ? Are you anywhere close to Avalon. I think that is the name, next to Stone Harbor. My H will be there from Aug 9-15. Do you think that you can go throw him in jail for 2 days saying that he is on suspicians for the murders of those 3 girls in AC? BTW, has anybody been arrested for those murders? When I first heard about them, I told my family that I wouldn't be surprised if my brother was responsible because he was always off. Strange personality like the ones that you read about and he does live in AC. LOL


Me: 41
H: 39
D: 6
S: 4
M-14 T-16
first bomb: 5-12-07 (M dead doesn't really want to work things out.)
second bomb: 6-4-2007
(found note he wrote about wanting desperately to be with OW and would have to give up everything)
Kelley